Assalam
As enthusiast as a final year students should be, I'm absolutely differ than I should be.
The class already started more a less a week. But, the feeling hasn't reach me yet, already postponed my flight to another 2 weeks to gather my thoughts and strength all together.
I'm mostly worrying about the kids thing and ttc things. *sigh*
So, am really not in the mood for studies just yet after I know everything is fine.
E already made an appointment with the O&G specialist at KJMC this Saturday.
I'm really praying that everything is fine and normal as a normal person should be, and it just the matter of blessing from Allah S.W.T with kids and our efforts. Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.
Insha Allah.
Frankly, I'm afraid.
Absolute afraid that something wrong with me.
Ya Allah, please grant me the strength and sabr and keep away the bad things from me. Amin.
Praying hard so.
As a women and a wife,
I bet you understand that not being able to give kids to your spouse is the hardest feeling ever.
I'm thinking till the extend of giving him permission to marry another one.
But, just the mere thoughts of it, torn my heart apart, and it does really hurt.
Crying while watching him sleeping soundly and the thoughts came, Ya Allah, only He knows how hurts it is and painful it is to me.
I guess the wifey-thing overwhelmed me more than my role as a student.
Please 1000x pray for me peeps, whoever you are, wherever you are.
Bismillah that everything will be just fine and Allah ease it for me.
Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.
Till then, daaaaa
Waalaikumussalam.
